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Jan. 15th, 2010 | 01:19 pm

As ever, I find myself shamefully putting my tail between my legs and saying, "I'm sorry, Evan, I should have listened to you." Because of course you were right. You said pretty much the exact same things as my cousin Michael, and I was too busy twitterpatin' to listen to either of you.

I've given up on Luke. He's become a ghost and I should have known better. He had me so hyped up and on such a high pedestal before I went out to visit him, that of course I couldn't possibly have lived up to it. It couldn't have been real, and in retrospect he must have just been rebounding really hard from the girl who broke his heart in the summer--it was shortly after that when he claims he fell for me. He started with the "I love you"s so early and even dropped the m-bomb at one point, before ever having really been with me. It was overwhelming. Since I'd had a crush on him since I was really young, and I was lonely out here in Oregon, I went along with it and ignored the warning bells.

At Christmas I met someone new, David, and we got along like a house on fire. I felt guilty being attracted to someone else when I had Luke, so I put it out of my mind. The less I heard from Luke, however, the more distressed and anxious I became--and the more distressed and anxious I became, the more the "love" I felt for him faded and reality set in. The next time I saw this new boy was on New Year's Eve, and we had a ridiculously fun time with his friends. That was two weeks ago, and in that time, two things have happened: 1) Luke completely dropped off the face of the planet and I haven't heard from him once; 2) I spent more and more time with David (and his friends/roommates Erin and Shane who are also heaps of fun) and got to some serious mutual twitterpating. Which is saying something, because I tried really hard -NOT- to be interested in him, but he's just so.. sort of.. perfect for me.

I feel sort of strange moving on so quickly, but it's been over a month since Luke and I actually had something resembling a functional relationship. And David is so refreshingly great--we've quickly become great friends, spend most of our time together laughing and having such awesome conversations, and he respects me... we aren't even dating yet and it's already the healthiest relationship I've been in~! So I really think I've done the right thing here. For once.

Evan: I promise to stop ignoring your advice. You're always right.

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mighty-mighty-mighty

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 08:04 pm (UTC)
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Yeah, honestly I don't know what I was thinking.

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mighty-mighty-mighty

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 08:33 pm (UTC)
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Thanks Johnny :) we should hang out again soon.

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mighty-mighty-mighty

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 09:29 pm (UTC)
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Oh hells yes, that sounds lovely. Next week?

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E to the V all the A in the N

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from: fiercelyisaac
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 08:11 am (UTC)
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MWAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA!

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E to the V all the A in the N

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from: fiercelyisaac
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 08:13 am (UTC)
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ummm...but...that was my celebration laugh. Not my "in your face" laugh.

Just remember that I love you. and I will always rub my snotty opinion everywhere.

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mighty-mighty-mighty

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 08:05 pm (UTC)
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I love you too, snotface.

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from: sidekick_dog
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 03:18 pm (UTC)
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rubbing snotty things anywhere is not too cool...haha

anyway,
The Luke thing sounded so surreal and dreamlike (to read about) from the beginning that I don't think you can call it "moving on" so much as "coming back." :-)

By the way, I know I've failed so far on following through with any souveniring I may have mentioned in the past...
I have a souvenir for another friend that's been waiting for the perfect box to come into my hands for like a year...
I suck at souvenirs, but I'm great at ellipses.

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 08:08 pm (UTC)
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I really like the way you put that. Surreal. Coming back. It's pretty accurate.
Don't worry about souvenir tardiness, I'm just glad you're enjoying it over there!

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miss shawna

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from: meowberry
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 03:54 pm (UTC)
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Dave is a great guy. I'm glad you two are getting along so swimmingly :)

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 08:09 pm (UTC)
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He really is :)

Miss you x 500,000.

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miss shawna

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from: meowberry
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 10:38 pm (UTC)
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Well I miss you x 1,000,000. ♥

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mighty-mighty-mighty

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 10:40 pm (UTC)
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Oh snap. Well I miss you x 500,000,000 :p
You really need to bamph out here STAT.

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miss shawna

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from: meowberry
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 11:04 pm (UTC)
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I KNOW. Maybe I could come out before summer semester starts?

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mighty-mighty-mighty

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 11:06 pm (UTC)
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Yes please yes please yes please!

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miss shawna

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from: meowberry
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 11:37 pm (UTC)
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Where do you usually look for cheap tickets?

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mighty-mighty-mighty

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 11:40 pm (UTC)
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Expedia has always been best for me :)

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miss shawna

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from: meowberry
date: Jan. 17th, 2010 04:19 am (UTC)
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Hmm it looks like it would be about $300 round trip so it might be do-able. I'm going to try to get some loans for the summer semester so maybe I can use some of my loan money.

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The Evening Star

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from: dave_the_wave
date: Jan. 16th, 2010 07:58 pm (UTC)
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This post makes me happy :D

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