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Jan. 21st, 2010 | 08:00 am

Cutting out all that negativity (by moving out of GR and cutting toxic people/situations out of my life) and replacing it with positivity has been really good for me. I've been sleeping better, having far fewer headaches. Some nagging feelings of insecurity about my body and weight but nothing too major. I have a great job that I love that thinks I'm awesome; I have wonderful friends (that means you, dudes) whom I love; I have a sweet, funny, kind boyfriend; I live in a bitchin' city where it's the end of January and there's still moss and grass and green planlife and I'm comfortable walking around outdoors in just a hoodie and sneakers; I'm inching closer and closer to getting out of debt (a big deal to me--by mid-March I'll have cleared up over $1700 of old credit card bills, which makes living broke forever super worth it).

I'm trying to send that positivity back into the world a bit. Spending time with people who are important to me, as much as I can; treating the office to bagels; planning ~secret treatz~ for some rad people in my life. But most importantly, making a conscious effort to recognize that life is good, that I am "blessed", and that I have the power to expunge bad forces from my life. Which sounds like a bunch of new-age garbage, but seriously. It's something that I struggle with when I get in the grips of a "rough patch" and lose sight of when I'm all full of depression and anxiety, as you guys have seen. But if I keep myself surrounded with reminders of how fuckin rad life is, how amazing the people in my life are, etc., I think that really helps. It has been, lately.

So thank you guys ♥

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from: aisales
date: Jan. 21st, 2010 05:53 pm (UTC)
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Glad to see you doing well kiddo. Keep up the good work!

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 21st, 2010 09:03 pm (UTC)
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Thanks!

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from: fiercelyisaac
date: Jan. 21st, 2010 06:13 pm (UTC)
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get it, girl!

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 21st, 2010 09:03 pm (UTC)
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*brb, gettin' it*

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 21st, 2010 09:26 pm (UTC)
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I'm glad I'm not the only one who has to put effort into it sometimes. That's pretty comforting to hear :) And I'm glad to hear Portland is always so green--it reminds me of Ireland, honestly, and it makes me feel like if the world around me is so alive, then I must be too.

We still on for sushi on Saturday? What time do you want to do that? I've got stuff going on in the morning/lunch-ish but after that I'm free like birds!

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 21st, 2010 09:58 pm (UTC)
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I haven't seen it, but that sounds cool :) I'll give you a call when I'm finishing up with my other plans (it involves my friends and their dog and a dog park, so I'm really vague on the timeframe) and we'll meet up. I don't think I have your number yet, whaaaat is it?

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from: meowberry
date: Jan. 22nd, 2010 05:16 am (UTC)
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aww I'm so glad. And I am really, really ecstatic that you and Dave are dating, cause the two of you are like, my faves :] He's seriously one of the nicest guys I've ever met, so I don't even have to give him any disclaimers about beating him up if he's mean to you, cause that just will not happen.

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from: hilaryann
date: Jan. 22nd, 2010 05:38 pm (UTC)
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Awwww ♥ We still need to beat up Luke and Zichterman :/ Which, speaking of, Luke deleted me from his FaceBook yesterday apparently. I hadn't heard back from him (still) and the last time I'd sent him a message was about a week ago (I'd only sent like 3 messages to him in the past month or so, it's not like I was harrassing him) and so I went to his profile to send him a "forget it, I don't even want an explaination anymore" sort of message and saw a patronizing status update--"Is she good looking, insecure, and bat-shit crazy? Then yeah, I probably dated her."--and simply replied "Pot, meet kettle." Grounds for deletion? Apparently. Ha.

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from: meowberry
date: Jan. 23rd, 2010 05:56 am (UTC)
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What the fuck, what a dick. Did he take lessons from Travis or something? I was stalking you and I saw your comment on his status and was like "lol, burn" but that's ridiculous that he would delete you over it...He needs to man the fuck up, for real. Obviously he's the one who is crazy and insecure if he didn't even have the balls to talk to you. UGH what a douche.
And god don't even get me started on Aaron. Good thing I don't live in GR...

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